I feel as though I am going crazy... I don't know who to talk to about some serious shiz that is going on. I have had what I call a talent for at least 30 years, but now it's turning into something I can't really explain. When I tried to explain it to my phycitrist today she didn't understand me. My doctors don't understand me. There are no books in the libraries I've went to that explain what I can do.
I have spent the last week searching the internet for someone else recorded on the planet that can do what I can do and have found nothing. I feel as though there might be no help for me. Im off to yet another specialist Monday to explain my story to yet another doctor who will undoubtably want to to go through another sling of tests. Why doesn't anyone believe me!!!
I've been exploring what I can do lately and its kind of fun. At the same time it comes with its consequences. Ok already, this is the part where you that read this will laugh and think I'm full of shiz. I have super enhanced hearing. I'm at the very highest end of the scale of hyperscusis. Lately I've had to seclude myself in a dark quiet room. When I leave my solitude, I get flooded with sound and processing everything gives me headaches. The more severe the headaches get the stronger my hearing gets. I can listen to conversations through walls, chose to listen to a conversation 6 tables away in a busy restaurant, I can tell when a key is put into the lock of the front door 4 floors below me and when my headaches are real bad I can close my eyes or blindfold myself to use echolocation. 3D mapping of my surrondings looks to me like you would see film in negitive form, black with whites. Noises are projected from its source in white and bounce off of objects.
I can see colors while using my echolocation only for things that give off good or bad energies. For instance, I may not be able to notice suttle facial gestures or some body language. However, If someone or something has say bad intentions or a negitive attitude, the sounds that bounce off of them it will radiate in a redish color, even if their facial gestures or body language is positive. The redish tone can bounce off of someone that is thinking of something negitive. As for everything positive I see blueish colors. I honestly now that I'm thinking of it can't remember the last time I used a flashlight.
I'm tired of typing and my head is pounding. Those of you that have read this far probably don't believe me so it is what it is I guess...